A Change of Direction

So as we all know I'm back to being single again, and have been for a few weeks. I've had my first Valentines Day as a single woman (which felt wonderful as whether single or in a relationship I detest that day!) I have been out with friends a few times, and had plenty of interest from men and women.

Now the woman had a boyfriend, one of the men was just plain weird and it felt like having my own lapdog/sycophant and the others were just not my type. And I'd rather like to overlook the so-called friend trying to set me up with his mate. Five minutes into fooling around with him and I was willing to run a mile in tight shoes just to get away from him.

In the past eighteen months my heart and soul have taken more of a battering than most will in such a short space of time, and I guess it's left me feeling rather cynical lately and a bit on the defensive. Which is really not like me. I used to enjoy having playmates and no strings fun, but it's not what I want any more, the very thought is a turn off and leaves me feeling a bit low oddly enough. When things were at their best with Storm (which sadly was rare) they were amazing and it's showed me a different side to things, and I'd quite like something like that again. So I'm going to wait this one out, be looking for some good free porn sites, and erotic novels to keep myself amused in the mean time and see where it goes.