Meep

So I'm slowly turning into my mum (been watching all those crime shows she loves) had work (never fun) and I'm now having subbie like dreams of being fucked in the arse.

I  really need to do something about this needing to sub thing!

Another Last Night Story

So last night I kept bringing Fyn to the brink of orgasm and then stopping. It went on for a while. It was a lot of fun for me. In the end I let him cum. I must be getting soft in my old age!

Quick Update

Well I've got a lot of work this week, so I don't know how much I'll be around. We're all back to good health and eventually need to get off our butts and do constructive/destructive things with the day.

Tonight

I'm feeling a bit rough tonight, caught Fyn's stomach bug. (Damn him!) So in a little while I shall be tying him up in some creative way so that he isn't going anywhere and forcing him to watch some porn. Just cause my stomach bug means I can't do very much else. I'll let you know how it goes later!

The Weekend

Well we're both up and back on our feet after an attack of the germs. So what's the plan for the weekend? I've got no cash until the start of the week so we'll be keeping it really cheap. I would like to have a quiet night in and have some play time with Fyn, but the thing is I really want to sub, I just don't want to sub to him. I want to be grabbed by the hair and have my holes used. I want to have my arse stretched and fucked. I want to be tied up and covered in cum. But there's no person I want to do that to me. For some reason, much as I love him I just can't sub to him. Every time I dom a partner I just can't sub to them afterwards. I wish I could, and a huge part of me wants to. But I just can't bring myself to.

The thing is much as I want to sub I really want to tie him down and torture his balls, his nipples and force him to watch me fuck his arse with my fingers. (I love the mirrors in our bedroom!) I also really want to give him a spanking. I haven't given him a proper spanking in a while.He makes the sexiest noises when I spank him, and he can take a hell of a lot more than he realises.

But why oh why is there no one out there to use me like a whore?

Ramblings

As I sit here with a mug of coffee, and a beautiful day outside I wonder what I shall do with the weekend. Fyn and I are rather poor until next week when I have a few jobs and can afford to leave the flat. It's also been a house of germs lately (tsk, damn time of year) so for once we don't have much in the way of plans to be honest. I have to beg my mum for some cash until later in the week, which I hate as I haven't had to do that in a long time.

But I shan't bore you with my personal life.

I really want to lock him in chastity but he's freaking out about it a bit, so I'll have to drop it for a while. (Shame.) I was actually really good to him last night, he was very stressed due to something going a bit bleh at his job. In fact he was ready to kill someone. So to try and help him chill out a bit I let him have an orgasm. It put a smile on his place right up to the moment I told him he had to swallow his cum afterwards. Apparently he is not a fan of it. Hopefully we'll get to play again tonight or maybe tomorrow night.

Getting out of trouble

Now for those that follow my mental bimblings you'll know that Fyn is under orgasm ban. He is now getting unbareable even for me. With the whinging, sulking and stropping I am going slowly mad. Not that he knows the full extent to my madness of it all. But I have told him if he behaves until 11pm tomorrow he can have a wank, maybe even an orgasm.

It can't be long now until he does something he shouldn't. He's also freaking out as I am looking at chastity devices. I'm going to have so much fun this next couple twenty four hours! In fact, if I feel (if I am being mean enough) he has just misbehaved and he'll have to wait until December now. Unless of course he can really make it up to me. So far not good.