I thought I'd continue on from the thought of having high expectations in my recent comments (which can be found here) as it has been on my mind this afernoon.
I had a bit of a strange upbringing, and love was something that seemed to be an easy come easy go. Especially where my Mum was concerned. So now I feel that the love I never had growing up is something I do deserve now. I want to feel special, and I want to be swept off my feet. If I thought that finally someone has come along that would sweep me off my feet the happiness was usually short lived.
I feel like I deserve someone that will love me and care about me who I could have a D/s relationship, but who understands that we need to have lives outside of that at the same time. Because as much as I'm sure many wish they could have that kinky novel D/s realtionship, it's a fantasy and reality is very different. We are not one-dimentional by nature, and that is what you really do have to love about humans, they are multi-fascited ever growing, changing and evolving in some manner or another. Even an apprantly stagnant pond has so much life moving and changing beneath it's surface.
So yes, call me fussy but I feel like I deserve someone who only has eyes for me, and if he is going to think about other women when he has a wank. Don't tell me that he does.Watching porn is one thing, but fantasising about fucking other women is another. I do apologise I'm going a little off, this is me gettng back on track! Someone who will show me love and affection. Someone is proud to have me as theirs.
So. Only question left is this. Where exactly do I go from here?
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